Before today I have always bothered about how my stroke has affected me and how people see me. Today I finally realised something….
I am totally, 100% Pete!
Sure, I’m damaged a bit for now, but I’m proud!! I’m a coffin nail of what life has made me, yet I’m totally comfortable with the man I am – actually, I like the new me even more!!!
It’s taken the depth of hell to find out who I am and I have none of the same insecurities or fears that the old me had. I know my purpose too!! I’m certain of it!! Still scratching around the same old hole, living week to week, but with a deeper understanding of life and not as focused on looking ahead but on what I did today!! On what I can do tomorrow!!
I hated myself for a long, long time and felt like a broken toaster, but my damage has also been the healing for me, for my soul, and for others!!! I really do value everything in a new light, and now I look to the side or behind me to help others….not forward all the time with blinkers on like Red Rum facing the finishing post! I don’t care if I’m not as strong or as fast as others anymore or whether will girls still like me….I am Peter Coghlan, a proud survivor of one of the toughest hands of cards ever dealt.
And I won!
It’s taken many years for me to open that box and empty it. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life…!! And WITH AIR CON IN MY CAR!!! HAHAHA