Now I see why bodybuilders do it!

Wow! I’m on fire right now, hitting it so hard night after night in my bedroom:

Knees to my chest, flapping my arms, circling them till they burn – just like we used to in karate. I feel this raw power running though my veins and am stronger than I have been since a lad….well close!!!

Eminem blasting in my ears, focused, pure-minded, adrenalin busting out of every pore; I’m mad yet in complete control. It’s unbelievable how your body can feel when you’re running it right – now I see why bodybuilders do it, a rush beyond comprehension.

I really think Jade leaving me was a blessing, giving me a sharp edge. Life does unfold in mysterious ways. Who knows what the Almighty has in store? You D Man! (And Danny, of course!!!)

No seriously,  I am deadly truthful here…..if you’re focused, TRULY FOCUSED, you can do anything! Be consistent, BELIEVE, put the time in!!! Okay, you may have to change to do it but, at the end, you’ll feel like God intended you to feel. Doing just enough in life will give you just enough! Put the time in and you’ll be surprised just how happy you’ll feel – HELL YER!!!!

Saw Rocky 3 again the other day. I was feeling a bit down, but I BELIEVE I was being given a sign: “Get back up! Don’t stop now, Pete – you’re not done yet!!! Get back up an fight, Lad!!!!”

Thanks God, I needed that!!!!!! As Rocky said to Clobber Lang (aka Mr T): “You ain’t so bad!!!!”

Hit me (go for it) I’m not done yet!!!


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Speaking of hearts…

Admittedly, I‘m a little too obsessed with my quest and  sometime feel that any new lady who comes across my blogs or book may run a mile! I mean I am not your average guy. A smile and a chat may be the start of something, then they check me out and think OMG!! What the…!!!
Truth is, I would like to love again one day!!



Talk about obsession!!!!

I’ve listened and listened for years – physios, personal trainers, dieticians – and I have to say their advice is working. Not everything in my diet is on here, but this is what I’m living on mostly. Cheri, my personal trainer, said, “Eat brown pasta, Pete”. And the best thing she told me to eat before gym is (surprisingly) sweet potato! Wayne, my dietician from the late Shents rehab, told me to try and have 40g of whey protein before, during or after exercise – that’s most days for me!

It’s taking over my life, this need – I’m better off on my own, I think!!
Hahaha! It’d take a very special woman to put up with me, ey?
I don’t care anyway, I’m happy as I am just now – feeling great and that’s all I wanted.

It’s weird, but eating healthy is actually cheaper, nearly half the usual bill, which is good now there’s just myself to look after. Jade and I talk so there’s no problem there; she sounds happier too. Guess I was hard work Hahaha! Got a bit carried away!!!! (understatement!) But no one can possibly understand if they haven’t been through it. After cancer and a massive stroke, you’re gonna be worried; you want to move and feel like you used to, and I’m gonna give it everything.

That’s what soldiers do. Once you’re in the army you have to give it your all. I was never a tough nut but I never gave in, and always gave 100%! The same goes for all service men and women; they will always push to win!! I’m so thankful to the 22nd Cheshire regiment –  you helped shape the man I am today!! I didn’t always like it, but you taught me a valuable lesson:


I didn’t see why I was in the army. Now I can!! Discipline!!!!! I needed it!

(Picture shows me on active service with the 22nd Cheshire Regiment)


What you do today will change tomorrow

Really interesting week.  The acupuncture, my personal training sessions (with all the work I‘m doing in the pool!) and  resistance training. It’s all coming together just as I thought it was all falling apart!! (see last blog)

My arm is starting to turn a corner, plus an added surprise this morning – I can finally reach the high notes in my voice!  I discovered this while singing along to Madonna.  I try to singing anything (not that I don’t like the old style Madonna!) I was singing ‘Papa don’t preach !” Hahaha! I have to say I’ve always liked that one!

So, the high notes do come back eventually as the voice gets stronger and it only took me  4 years of screaming like a nutter! Probably all the crying helped too.

Another nice moment this week: While I was taking the rubbish bins in, I met a girl called Kat who lives locally and she told me she’s an ICU nurse at Jondaloop Hospital. She had a break up a few years ago too, giving us something in common. Think we could be good friends. What spun me out was that she knew about locked-in syndrome straight away! Well, she would in her job, ey?

Sometimes I swear God is introducing me to these nice people I keep meeting.
There’s a video of me in the gym the other day which I hope to upload before long.

Would just like to say a huge thanks to Cheri and to that very, very kind person or persons who donated 10 free personal training sessions! They’re really helping, REALLY HELPING!! Thank you so much xxx

People who are following me must see now that persistence  and positive thinking with a good diet along with expert help here and there can change things. You must put the time in,  if you can!!

Small steps regularly and don’t give in. Even if it takes a long time –  4 years of struggling for me with a craving obsession.  It might be longer for you, but it doesn’t matter; the point is, it can be done and the fact you’re trying may just be enough.

This obsession has certainly cost me, but now I’m happy. If you want it, keep trying!!!! What more can I say?

What you do today will change tomorrow!!!